Auguries and autumns

Dear Side Questers,

The name of today’s newsletter, auguries of autumn popped into my head and refused to leave. Sometimes bits of text do that to writers, like they know something we don’t. Fine, I said, auguries it is. But first I’ll have to look it up to be sure I understand the word.

An issue, I’ve noticed, of being a lifelong reader, is that some words become intuitive based on their use and decades later, you realize you can’t explain them. Auguries; as in sooth-saying, fortune telling, etc. So I looked it up, to discover that the original augury was the practice of telling the future by observing birds.

I don’t know if I’m a superstitious person. I do like learning about omens and meanings from a magical, cultural standpoint that appeals to my inner storyteller. Then I remembered that pair of blue jays I mentioned in last month’s newsletter, teaming up to chase a very embarrassed-looking hawk from their territory.

I would very much like that to be an augury from birds.

Banned Book Club is a graphic novel written by Kim Hyun Sook and Ryan Estrada, and illustrated by Ko Hyung-Ju. Set in 1983, this book is based on true events that unfolded when South Korea was reigned by a military regime with heavy censorship rules enforced by torture and murder.

The main character, Kim Hyun Sook attends university for the first time, wary of the student protests all around and everything she’s been taught about them. She soon learns that what she’s been taught is not the whole truth and joins a club for banned books. Illegal banned books, I should point out. Spies are searching for them. Her friends are tortured, all for the ‘relentless rebellion of reading.’

It’s a high adrenaline, fast-paced book that I enjoyed immensely. There was a particular page (31) that stopped me in my tracks when I realized how well it represented current events.

The 3-S’s: sex, sports, and screens. If you plug that into a modern-day context, it can get quite disconcerting. It’s been almost a year that the headlines have been dominated by Epstein Island and the rape of children. More recently, they’ve added the FIFA world cup, “bring the [world cup] so they can cheer for their country instead of against its leaders” (page 31, Banned Book Club). And as for screens, well, you’re looking at one right now.

I read this book when it came up at Red, Wine, and Blue’s (ahem) banned book club, a semi-monthly online book club. The group brought in Ryan Estrada (co-writer and husband to Kim Hyun Sook) to offer a small lecture ahead of the discussion.

The hosts asked him what his reaction was when he found out that his book was being banned from school libraries in certain American states. He explained that his main task was to understand why. It’s a book that has won multiple prestigious awards and has historical value, after all.

What he found out was unexpected. Many of the banned books are culled from a list that is sent out to groups like Moms for Liberty. These groups rarely have time to read the books in question, simply because there are so many, so the list is heavily relied upon.

The hosts mentioned that they’ve heard this from several other of their banned book author guests. There’s a list, their book is on it, and nobody actually read their book to confirm.

I’d like to add a caveat of my own here. In the fundamentalist Christian cult I was raised in, we were always discouraged from reading books that come under scrutiny because they could allow the evil “into our hearts,” sway our faith, and the part that was not said out loud: wreck all the hard work of brainwashing us. We were simply to accept that the books were what our leaders told us they were and preach accordingly. And we did, because that’s what we were trained that faithfulness to god looked like. I strongly suggest that this control tactic has more to do with the books not being read rather than that the lists are simply too long.

In addition, Estrada found that if a book happens to have the first three title words of another book that is on that list, that book will get caught in the net and pulled as well.

All of this, as an author, is infuriating, but it got weirder (puts on conspiracy hat). Remember, this book is based on his wife’s lived experience, so Estrada wants to understand. He keeps digging and follows this list to a private school thinktank (my term, not his) who developed this list to discredit public school libraries, knowing that by selecting a certain type of book, they could get religious groups to do the hard work for them and redirect funding from public into private schools.

This is wild to me as someone who lives in a place where public schools are the norm and private schools are a rarity. But it’s a zoom book club and I’m watching the mostly American audience nodding along like this is common. The upper class weaponizing Christianity to funnel more money their way; a literal medieval tactic still in play. Banning books for greed. Ugh.

If you’re enjoying this banned books content, you might also enjoy my book, Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop, a cozy, contemporary fantasy novella about a magical bookshop who delivers banned books to the readers who need them most. Check it out here.

We continue to have fairly regular rain, though I’m cautious to write that “out loud” with another drought raging in Europe right now, looking as brown and brittle as we did this time last year. Our rainwater collection is ridiculous, yet I can’t bring myself to empty the containers that were so precious last year, just in case we anger the gods or what have you.

Here in New Brunswick, the forest is still recovering from the drought, which has been a curious thing to watch. One of the young yellow birch trees (perhaps 10-15 years old) near the spot where we hang our hammocks only leafed out along a single branch this spring, and even those were thin. I think I counted six leaves. Perched on the edge of a steep section of hill, it left a noticeable hole in the canopy, but dead trees are important, too, so we consoled ourselves on the loss and left it alone.

Slowly, carefully, the tree sprouted a few more leaves, close to its center. A few weeks later, a different branch bore a thin stretch of leaves. Then again, and again, as I realized with some wonder that each tiny leaf is playing this massively important role of strengthening its tree enough to push the next leaf, one at a time until they save themselves.

This is the part of the newsletter where I should probably say, never believe you’re too small to make a difference, because you’re not, or even that nothing is ever truly hopeless. But mostly I just want to sit in the wonder of trees for the moment.

the three that will survive

With rain also comes mushrooms, and they’ve been showing off a little extra for having had last year off.

The folds of her gills capture the light like fairy curtains, and there’s something about her that suggests she knows how pretty she is. I never know what to make of this kind of confidence; in people or in mushrooms.

After years of hearing about blue-staining boletes, I found my first, and then dozens more (they are the orange ones to the right in the photo above). In a fit of creativity, I decided to use a stick to stain a poem onto one, which delighted me to no end, but I’m not sure anyone else saw as anything more than someone who wrote on a mushroom with a blue pen. Ah, well.

Then it started to decompose, as all mushrooms do, only I’ve never seen a poem decompose before. Have you?

The article I mentioned last month, that I was hired to write for the 100th anniversary of the Royal Canadian Legion, was published this month. It was an honour to write this, and deeply satisfying to know that, by writing them down, these stories are saved… for now.

The story also coincided with my own research into WWII for my current novel-in-progress, which is now reaching the halfway point. Serendipity! I couldn’t quite believe it when I got the assignment, and I like the way learning these local stories grounded the history for me.

The article is also the most action I’ve ever written! Tank explosions, motorcycle dispatchers being shot off their bikes, and the first Allied member to learn that Hitler was dead was a lady soldier right here at home. ‘Magine! Of course you can read it, too, as it’s available without paywall here: https://www.connectingalbertcounty.org/culture–heritage/heroes-of-albert-county

Appropriately, this volunteer poppy bloomed to coincide with the publication, which was another lovely bit of serendipity.

Well, that’s all my news for this month, but what about you? I’d love to hear from you! Simply hit reply or leave a note in the comments with what you’re reading, your summer adventures, or anything at all.

Until next month, stay enchanted, friends.

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into the wintry blue

Dear Side Questers,

This morning is coloured all in shades of blue. There’s fresh snow on the ground and the sun is a timid thing yet.

Exciting things have been happening. Last spring, I wrote an essay and submitted it to a call for writers and artists to respond to L. M. Montgomery’s 150th Birthday. A peer review process soon followed, which was an interesting experience from a fiction writer’s perspective. Several different editors prodded my piece into their journal’s style by tweaking commas, asking questions, making sure this is really what I meant (it was). The editorial process always fascinates me, so seeing behind the veil into nonfiction was a fun romp. Part of me is still amazed they accepted my essay, but it’s out in the world now, and if you’d like to read it, here is a link to it on the Journal of L. M. Montgomery Studies website.

I think the essay reflects the way I’d been watching the Christofascism rising in North America with growing concern. Taking the first, deliberate steps to stop being triggered and start speaking up. It’s fitting to me that the essay came out around the same time as I was launching Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop. The novella was originally a short story, written a few years ago, but I didn’t bare my soul in the short story the way I do in Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop. I think I needed to be a little radicalized by current events to finally dig that deep.

The response has been truly wonderful. A writer and teacher I admire listed Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop as his #1 for 2024, I’ve had a few cult survivors reach out (this meant the world to me), and more than a few private messages from people who were touched by it.

Reviews have been slowly collecting on Amazon. I’m still struggling to get Ingram sorted and I’m so sorry it’s taking this long, the holiday season has always been a struggle for me and I’m doing my best to reserve spoons for my mental health.

These are a few of my favourite reviews:

Thank you to everyone who has read and left a rating or a review so far, and especially to people who have been sharing this book with people they think would also enjoy it. Thank you for coming on this journey with me.

And, if you haven’t read it yet and are a bit curious, you can find Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop right here.

As for this month’s side quest – it’s been marketing. I’ve been making videos and carousels, just doing my best to find the readers who might need this book as much as I did. There’s a decided learning curve, but I’m carrying on, allowing myself my mistakes.

One of the weirdest parts has been determining my “niche” without limiting myself. We’ll see how that goes…

This month has been wintry. A neighbour’s dog from up the mountain a bit has taken a liking to our porch and we often find him sleeping there in the morning, resulting in some rather stunning walks up the mountain for me as I attempt to take him home.

Have you ever seen needle ice? They are ice columns formed by groundwater that pop up above the soil and twist into strange ice flowers. I’ve been enjoying them during our freeze/thaw cycles of early winter.

That’s it for this month, Side Questers. Hold your loved ones close, 2025 is shaping up to be a bumpy ride and we’ll need each other to break through to the other side.

Take care and keep reading,

Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop

You know that phenomenon where you don’t hear from your writer friend for a while and then they suddenly show up and announce they’ve written a book?

I wrote a book.

A novella, actually. It felt like it was time to write about some of my experiences as a cult survivor with everything happening in the world and then this book just sort of poured out of me. I wrote it in a summer workshop, and next came edits, then four amazing beta readers and now… I’ve hit publish on the ‘zon.

Here is my blurb so you don’t have to squint at the cover photo:

Be the magic bookshop you want to see in the world.

Gabby has moved on since she escaped the fundamentalist cult she was raised in 25 years ago, but when an evangelist accuses her of grooming because of the LGBTQIA+ books in her Little Free Library, her life begins to fall apart. Gabby finds solace in the pages of a slim book entitled Care and Feeding of Your Little Banned Bookshop, which details how to look after a living, magical bookshop. But a magical bookshop that gives out banned books to those who need them couldn’t be real… or could it?

Find out in the book readers are calling “Studio Ghibli meets Roald Dahl-for grownups.”

Links! I should share links!

Amazon Canada

Amazon U.S.

Ingram is coming for you Chapters and Barnes&Noble fans.

And I will say that writing something so deeply personal is terrifying, exhausting, and ever so meaningful. The feedback I’ve received from early had reduced me to tears more than once. One of my beta readers told me that “this is the book needs right now” and that it reminded her that she should be the main character in her own story. Another told me that she knew “this book will stay with me for a long time.” This is the stuff that FEEDS writers, I swear.

That’s all for now, I’ve been going full speed and need to have a lil nap before I wake up and tackle the marketing aspect (gulp!).

Talk soon,

New poem – Essence

My wee poem about the delight of discovering a beloved new story and the desire to carry it with you after the words have all been read is now available to read in Polar Starlight.

You can download the pdf issue to read for free by clicking here. Essence is on page 22 and I’d love to hear what you think of it!

The Second Form of Ginny Elder

I’m delighted to let you know that my story, The Second Form of Ginny Elder, is now available in the inaugural issue of Hearth Stories.

Ginny calls herself a failed human, but she’s also a grandmother, a hermit who looks after the ghosts of the animals who live in her wood, and maybe a leshy????

You can read all about her in the Winter Solstice 2023 Issue of Hearth Stories, available to download here.

The Girl with Starlight Hair

My latest story, The Girl with Starlight Hair, is now available in Kaleidotrope’s Autumn issue. You can read it by clicking here.

I first drafted this story when I challenged myself to write fairy tales that involved space and space travel. That challenge was borne of reading a comment that fairy tales don’t belong in space. I’m not the sort of person who has interest in arguing, but I will go home and write a story, dammit.

Very threatening, I know.

One of these fairy tales I wrote to claim space for myself in, um, space, is The Girl with Starlight Hair. The girl in question hasn’t always been a girl. She used to be a planet, and over her shoulder, she carries her dying sun. I pulled inspiration from folklore, daydreams, and the softness of my heart and I hope that she sparks something in you like she did for me.

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